I looked into your eyes today
And found something else
Hidden, deep within your core…
It was only a passing glance
Less than a moment
(an indefinite thing)
And there it was
So beautiful
Everything that makes up you
They say you can see a man’s soul in his eyes
And now I must believe it
For I saw it
And was nearly
I was nearly you in that moment
Imperceptibly
Indefinably
Not me
So then I knew
I had to meet myself
In my own eyes
Through my own skin
And my own mind
My soul
(unreal?)
But when I looked in that mirror
I saw nothing
I stared
And stared
But saw nothing
Just… eyes
Slowly sliding downward to the counter
To stare and stare again
As I slowly let myself go
Resting my chin on the marble
(silent accusations)
And then there you were
Asking me questions
Not understanding
I looked at you then
(again)
Into your eyes
And there you were
Like before
But so was I
Not quite you
(Epiphany)
Me
No, my reflection
Defined by you
I was myself
Because I wasn’t you
I felt you, and knew you
And I wasn’t that
I was definition
Existing
Purely for lack of the other
All this time
I sought me in myself
All alone
Solitary
Never thinking that all the time
I knew what I was
I didn’t even realize
Because I knew nothing else
(you know not the sweet of sugar
if you’ve never tasted salt)
and when I became you
(except not quite)
I saw myself
Defined by what you weren’t
Ironic
I couldn’t find myself
Because you had it along

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